Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Pulling Myself Out of This Funk

Today is a day to just tell you how I feel..........

I feel really disconnected from this blog lately, and from blogging in general. I think mainly, it's because I have just been sooo legitimately busy the past few weeks. I started a new job back in the beginning of the month, and since then, I really have zero time to read other blogs. I can't even tell you the last time I just sat down and read a bunch of blogs for the fun of it! And I miss that.

I've also been very busy with all sorts of wedding planning. We're now only 67 days away from the big day, and there's still just a TON of stuff that still needs to be accomplished. Like whoa. I'm doing my best, but it's just hard to stay on top of it all. And planning a wedding is definitely fun - don't get me wrong - but I'll also just be glad once we get past it, and I feel like I can breathe again.

The boys (Jeff's 7-year-old twins) have been here a lot this summer, and that's been great. I really do love them so much and I'm so excited for us to officially become a little family in October. I'm so thankful for the time we have with them during the summer months, since they usually live 9 hours away from us - but it's hard having no time to ourselves for so long. (I really hope that didn't sound like the most horrible, selfish thing to say...please know that's not how I meant it.)

Workouts now happen at least five times a week, with three of those occurring before the sun is even fully in the sky. I wake up early and go to bed late, and I never quite get enough rest. And even though I'm working out so much and running my booty off, I continue to not eat as healthy as I should, so I'm just barely maintaining my weight, rather than losing anything. And of course that's frustrating, but I know it's no one's fault but my own. I just need to get it together...

Basically, I'm just ready for a break. I'm ready for a vacation. I'm ready for some me time. And the great news is that I'm going to be able to get that come October 6th! I'm so excited to marry this man whom I love so much, and who loves me even more in return. But I'm also just really excited to go on a vacation with him once it's all over :)

Today just feels like it's off to a rough start (I had some serious issues on my run this morning that seem to have set the tone for the day), but I'm working on Pulling Myself Out of This Funk, and I'll be Positive Patty once again in a few hours. For now though, I just wanted to write it all out and kinda get it off my chest a little bit. Thanks, blog friends, for lending a listening ear, and always offering encouragement and kind words. That's one of my favorite things about this blogging community we're in!

10 comments:

Miranda said...

It is always incredibly difficult to remain positive when there are numerous stressful things going on. Let your positive attitude continue to shine through, and always remember that you are an inspiration to those of us who read your blog...in everything from your fitness journey to multitasking. I hope your week improves. :)

Brianne said...

Everyone gets into funks sometimes, especially where there is a lot going on in your life. I hope that your day gets better & just remember your vaca will be here before you know it!

Ida said...

Letting it out always makes me feel better, I hope it did for you. We are a community, here to support each other. I totally understand how you feel that you and your fiance don't have any time right now because of the kids. I go through it everytime my bf has his kids over. I also understand that he only sees theme very once in a while so it is special to him, I just plan alone time for as soon as they leave. Like you said, you are a family, this comes with the territory. Hope you start feeling better soon!!

Rachel said...

I hope that blog post made you feel better. Whenever I'm in a funk, I feel relieved just blogging about it! Sometimes it's nice to step away from writing posts and social media if you're feeling overwhelmed with your personal life. I have to take a few breaks here and there or I go crazy.

And believe me... you'll be so happy on the day of your wedding. I don't think I could ever plan one again - so much work!

Hope you feel better soon!

Becky said...

It's always good to get things off your chest. I feel like blogging is a good outlet to write it down and then you can move past it! Positive Patty is allowed to have a break too :P

Brianna said...

Girl, you've got a LOT going on - don't be too hard on yourself! A wedding is stressful in and of itself. Add everything else on top of it and overwhelmed is putting it mildly! Stay true to you and don't sweat the small stuff ;).

Bekah @ re·solve said...

I've been feeling quite the same way lately, but I'm thrilled for your new job and upcoming wedding. Yay!

13.1 Miles to Disney said...

We all have tough run days. You got up and went outside to run so that's 99% of the battle. I hope you're able to get some rest soon. =)

Esther Norine Designs said...

I know how ya feel. I haven't blogged in forever! Reading has been tough too. I'm assuming at some point I will be inspired to get back on the blog.

CeCe said...

Life gets so busy! It's so hard to keep up with it all. When I think about how little time we get to ourselves outside of work it's a bit sad. Hang in there!! Keep thinking about that vacation.